Trust, Abandonment, & Obedience...that is quite the mouthful! Yet for a week it has been my meditation. The Holy Spirit gave me these three directives while talking to my prayer partner. We both struggle with trust. We doubt ourselves and find that soon we can only see obstacles to what God wants for us and for what God wants us to do.
It has come to me that if I can trust God then I am able to abandon my will, desires, etc for His Will and His Desires. It then follows that I will be Obedient. Obedient to Him, who only asks that I TRUST IN HIM.
It sounds so simple and it is. Little children trust their parents completely. Children will love and trust an abusive parent. So how is it that I who have a loving, caring Father in God have a hard time trusting. Simply because I am a sinner and human. Oh and I need a 2x4 to get the message.
God put me in the desert, not just figuratively but in reality. It can be a dry lonesome place with prickly thorny plants and little water. Yet, it is also filled with the solitude that I need to hear God. It is full of plants that though prickly and thorny have blooms that take my breath away. An there is enough water to sustain life.
God in His great mercy provides for me. The other meditation He gave me is from Venerable Charles de Foucauld.
"One must cross the desert and live there to receive God's grace. It is there that one can drive away from oneself everything that is not God."
Lord, help me to live in the desert with more peace so that I may drive away everything that is not God.