I remember the day that we got the diagnosis of metastatic pancreatic cancer. It was like being kicked in the gut. This can't be real. Some days even now I wake up and I think that it was all a bad dream. But it isn't. It is our reality. I am not sure how to help him, so I pray. I pray that he will have strength and peace. I pray for myself, that God will keep my heart open to His love and that I will find meaning in this struggle. I pray to thank God for the time He has given us and continues to give to us. I pray that each day I realize how blessed we are that we are alive and able to enjoy the day together.
Today as I was praying the Office a covey of quail came by and I remembered that He had His eye on them, so I know that He must have His eye on me.
Rachel of www.rachelwojo.com posted a prayer that spoke to me. I will share it with you here:
a prayer for when you feel like giving up
Sometimes the day can't pass quickly enough,
While others fly by at lighting speed.
I can't seem to keep up
With the pace of this world.
I'm tired Lord.
My heart is weary and my spirit is weak.
I'm trying my hardest
To take the next step
To keep trying
To move on.
But between me and you, Lord
I feel like giving up
Help me remember the reason I began
Help me see the purpose behind Your plan
Provide the necessary grace
Keep me set upon Your face
To find strength for that next step
To discover faith to keep trying
To pause for this moment
And then move on.
In Jesus name, Amen