Monday, March 2, 2015
~ St. Padre Pio
This Lenten Season has not been what I planned. I am sure though that it has been and will be what God has planned for me.
First, I fractured my foot and being on crutches and a cane and now possibly a boot is a humbling experience. I had Plans! Now I am dependent on others to help me out and it is slow going.
Second, because of my foot I was unable to attend the Lenten Mission at Church and I was really looking forward to hearing Fr. Foley.
Thirdly, I gave up Facebook with the expectation that it would be hard and somehow change me. Then I started to read several Catholic Bloggers that stated extremely compelling reasons why one should NOT give up social media, but embrace it as an agent for change. Too late, I am committed. I must admit that has not been hard and I feel no change, however, God does tend to have His own mystifying time table for such things.
I know my prayer partner was concerned that my posts were only slightly behind the number of another friend on her wall. She was concerned. Perhaps she should have been. I fear that she believed that I was frittering away my day with hitting the "like" button and sharing a little too much. It was not getting in the way of my prayer life or my conversation with God. It was a filler when I was waiting to go to Mass or waiting for an appointment. But none the less I gave it up because I felt drawn to it.
But what does all this have to do with metamorphosis? Well, the Transfiguration has always stumped me somehow. I didn't get it. Then Fr. Charlie used the word metamorphosis instead of transfiguration. The clouds parted and understanding hit me over the head.
I have often spoken about how Michael was transformed. The truth is that all of us who knew him were transformed. His transfiguration allowed each and everyone of us to learn a lesson. A lesson on how to die with Grace and Dignity. A lesson on how not to complain about the hand we are dealt in life. A lesson on how to embrace and forgive and love. How to be the person that God intends for us to be.
Christ allowed them to see His Divinity shine through His Humanity. He gave them a glimpse of who He was and is. They, like me, didn't get it. God in His Mercy shields us from His Big Plan. He knows how it would terrify us. Instead He gives glimpses and riddles that we have difficulty with understanding. Though in hind sight it is clear. He is God. He loves us.
I stand before you
in a bit of a muddle.
Help me to remember that You are the Planner
and I am only an empty vessel that You fill.
Help me in my metamorphosis...