Sunday, April 17, 2016
Today is a gift.
I have the ability to hide in my little world. I go to daily Mass and home and to my sister's home. I also go to the grocery store when needed. But what I really want to do is travel!
I just got back from a week of camping with a group of strangers. I felt that I had been thrown head long into a world that I did not feel comfortable in. It was a singles group which really is not my scene, but a mutual friend wanted me to meet up with a women. She thought we would hit it off.
The woman and I were able to find common ground and we had a good time until we had to be with the group. They were negative in so many respects and there was a fair amount of casual sex. It reminded me that my life had changed in small and big ways. I no longer felt part of the world. Especially that world. So I made sure that I started my day with prayer; to ground me, to put on my armor, to help me remember that I am a child of God. The Rosary in my pocket was a good physical reminder of who I want to be and how I want to conduct myself.
I listened to their stories about how lost and hopeless they felt. Only one other person went to Church on Sunday. We went to Mass together. There were remarks about going to church so we could be saved. I needed to go to get grace and be strengthened.
As much as I wanted to hide in my RV and not interact I knew that I had to get out there and be Christ-like. I attempted to put a positive spin on the negative. I was to be a witness to them. I did my best.
The week did help remind me that I love being in my RV, seeing the country and admiring God's handiwork. I was and am feeling guilty about wanting to be out there when I have commitments here at home. As I was discussing this with my favorite sister, she reminded me that I need to do this traveling thing while I still can. She reminded me that each day is a gift and that I can't squander it. My parents and brothers agree with her. Then Father Charlie talked about it in his homily at Mass. I know he sees my heart and reads my mind!
I want to find a way to meet my commitments and still travel. It would be a shame for that new RV to just sit and gather dust. I bought it for a reason.
Lord you gave me the desire to serve you.
And You gave me the desire to travel.
Help me to find a way to do both.
Your will, not mine.