I am getting my pre-trip jitters. That includes being anxious, making endless lists, and lots of sleep interrupted nights.
Every mother in the world has asked her child to, "Be Still." Sometimes it is with actual words and sometimes it is a hand on the child's leg and sometimes it is The Look.
All week God has been asking me to "Be Still". He knows how I panic right before a trip. Did I pack the right clothes, the right amount of clothes? Do I have everything that I promised to bring everyone? Will I be able to see everyone that I need to see? And so it goes. I am in full Martha mode!
And yet the message remains the same, "Be Still."
I remember while in Guatemala several of us had made a trip to some water falls for the day. You could find a peaceful part of the river and sit on a rock in the middle and if you were STILL, you were rewarded. Suddenly you could see all the small life that was happening right there at your feet. I remember that a certain friend came and sat next to me. He kept moving his feet back and forth in the water disturbing my peace. I asked, "Can't you just be still for a moment?"
The one place that I could usually be still was at night, at the helm of our boat in the middle of the ocean. Sometimes the sky would be ebony with pinpoints of light and you could hear the water as we moved through it and the wind tugging on our sails, pulling us ever closer to our destination. Some nights the moon would shine and light our way and the water would shimmer all around us and there would be phosperesence in our wake. At night with everyone sleeping below I was STILL. I felt engulfed in God's arms.
“Be still, and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!”
The prophet Elijah in today's reading hears God in the whisper of a breeze. Today's meditation song reminded me, "Be Not Afraid", and Jesus stilled the waters for the Apostles. I hear God speak my own words back to me..."Can't you just be still for a moment?"
Jesus, please still
the anxiousness of my mind.
Help me to be not afraid.
I have seen you calm the waters of the ocean,
you always brought me home to safe harbor.
I ask you to still the tumult of my mind and
whisper to me on the breeze.