I was texting with my prayer partner last night. She is feeling a little over busy and is concerned that she may be losing sight of her call. It happens and I can relate. In the Honeymoon phase when you are so on fire you sign up for every retreat, society and mission that you can work into your schedule. You fill your day with commitments that are more about doing then about being.
Prayer becomes rote and there is little meaning. Though in times of aridity it is right to continue praying. We want to be careful not to become "whited sepulchers" more concerned about the Law than the Spirit of the Law. We don't want to be: just seen praying. We must pray! But it is not important to let others always see or know that we are indeed praying. We continually must evaluate our motivation. It is a delicate balance. I like to remember that Jesus often times appears to be overwhelmed by the crowds. He takes time to go to a quiet place to pray. We need to do that too. Prayer is the battery charge that keeps us going and gives meaning to our lives.
So I was praying about my prayer partner this morning and I thought of Martha and Mary. In Luke 10:38-42 we read:
"As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where
a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called
Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha
was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to
him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do
the work by myself? Tell her to help me!" "Martha, Martha," the Lord
answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one
thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be
taken away from her."
I am a lot like Martha. I run around and make sure that everything is as it should be and only stop when exhausted and a little upset that no one was helping me. Though if I am honest they wouldn't do it the way I want it anyway.
I struggle to be like Mary. I want to sit quietly at the feet of Jesus, but my mind starts to wander with all the things that I need to get done. I am making mental lists of lists. I find being quiet difficult! I can hide in my busyness. So I try and practice being quiet. I try to listen.
So dear prayer partner if you want I am willing to change places though I think we both need to take a breath, go to a quiet place, and listen. I believe that He is calling...